If I were to say that sometimes you have to lose you can learn how to win, would you understand? I had to really think about it. I hadn’t thought about it for a long, long time. Unfortunately, in order to prepare for the next great thing or the next big step in life, you sometimes have to lose almost everything. Since November, I’ve lost my mother, my sense of control on the ability to organize things that are not mine, my money, and sometimes my way. Tomorrow (or later today), I will lose one more thing.
I received a phone call today that was a little jarring, but I can’t be too surprised by it. Considering that the way things have been going, I probably should have seen it coming. My bank declined a couple of checks. Most importantly, they declined the check that was paying for my car. I found this out when the nice lady from the bank called to inform me (No, I didn’t realize I was that far behind). My first reaction was to go ahead and try to figure out what happened and find money if possible but then I realized something. It’s actually a good sign. I know, not many people would think like this, right? It really is though. Later today, when i call the lady to let her know that I will go ahead and let her take my car, I’ll do it with these things in mind:
- With the repossession of the car, that means I will no longer struggle for gas money.
- I won’t have to pay $800 for my registration nor will I get a ticket for not having registration.
- My tires are bald and therefore, I don’t need to replace them. They can do that for me.
- That car has served me well for 50k miles and was a great help.
- Although I will miss my car, I will find another way to get to work and back.
- It is just a car. Material item that can be replaced at a later time in life. Although I love my car, it is just a car.
- I still love myself and my kids – that can’t be repossessed, yet.
I took the chance to use up the rest of the gas in the car and went to the offices today to find that someone wants to partner with me on another project. Will this new thing be what helps me become for self-sufficient for me and my kids? I don’t know. I can only hope it will and I will think about that and try hard to focus on the positive as all the negative wipes out of my vision and out into the air out there.
Things happen for a reason. And sometimes, you have to fall before you can rise. It’s in the art of things.